Nights are hard for me sometimes.
I know; this sounds bizarre. Nights should be the best part of the day! I mean, I get off of work at 5:00pm (I know, I know… it’s super legit). I get home, have a tiny snack, sometimes make it to the gym, cook dinner, hang out and relax with Drew, watch TV, and read.. What’s hard about any of this, right? Even seeing this nightly routine laid out makes me feel a little silly.
Well, I can’t really put my finger on it. All I know is that, sometimes, around 8:30 or 9:00pm, I start to feel anxious. I go through the list in my head of things like errands to run, chores to do, phone calls to return, full-time jobs to apply for (I’m a temp, don’t know if I’ve mentioned that). Then I go bigger, thinking about… oh, you know, my career path in general, life goals, how I’m going to make a difference in the world.
Then, I get overwhelmed by all of it and, being a perfectionist, I decide that if I can’t do it perfectly, I shouldn’t do it at all (hence, my blog absence for the last couple of days). I know. It’s a really twisted way of thinking.
Obviously, everyone–everyone–has worries in their day-to-day lives. Everyone is going through something, and I hope you don’t misunderstand this confession as laundry list of complaints. Anxiety is just a part of my world (always has been), and sometimes the little worry troll in my head is too loud (exhibit A). I’m working on it.
In my crusade to minimize stress, I stumbled upon this article. A couple of sentences in I was like “YEAH YEAH YEAH! THAT’S ME!“. The article’s title reeks of cheesy “self-help”, but, if you experience anxiety, it’s worth the read. And if you don’t feel like reading it, skip to the bottom to read five Cognitive Behavioral Therapy exercises that you can do on your own to manage and reduce stress. Bettah believe I’ll be trying these out. My celebrities would be Oprah and Bethenny. Obviously.
So, I wanted to tell you that.
I’m curious. Do you ever get anxious? What are your tricks for shutting up your own little worry troll?